Sometimes you just need to write. Sometimes, you need to get everything out of your head and out onto
paper the computer screen. I’ve been absent for far too long. No excuses, simply life getting in the way. It’s hilarious to me that a short time ago I was bored.
Bored being a stay-at-home mom.
Bored with life.
Bored with everything.
It’s amazing what can happen in a few years. At times, I can hardly believe this is my life. It’s a fantastic, almost hypnotic, feeling. Do I still struggle? Yes, of course. Every day in fact. I still have struggles, but for the first time in a long time I feel I have a significant purpose in multiple areas of my life. I feel I am taking steps to becoming who I was meant to be all along.
I work hard every day.
I feel stressed for time.
I run from appointment to activities to errands.
Days that are anything but boring. Making me think to myself those boring days from years ago were simply life’s way of telling me the best was yet to come. Specifically, when I think back now I hear life whispering to me, “This is your time off. Relish it because in a few years you will be busier than you can ever imagine.” Life is a paradox. It is never what you want it to be when you want it to be. In short, life happens. It happens every day, all day. I never expected to be working two jobs I love. Jobs that fulfill me on so many levels. I never imagined having my husband home for longer than 10 months. I never imagined having two daughters who are a blessing every day. I never expected that once my youngest daughter went to five day preschool I would be using that time to work a creative enriching job I love that actually has an impact on people’s lives.
It’s funny what happens in life when you least expect it.
And now I’m not bored. Not even close. Sure, there are moments I wish I could slow down if only to savor my life right now. Days that don’t disappear in the blink of any eye. Evenings that don’t end with me so exhausted I fall asleep before my six year old. But those moments are fleeting, they disappear as quickly as they come because the truth is I would take all those moments if it means I am starting to live my life for a purpose.
Some people go their entire lives unfulfilled; not living with a purpose that speaks to their soul. They never get the chance to live the life they always envisioned. They are stuck. Stuck like I was last year when I started this blog. Even though, writing on this blog has been scarce the creativity that has stemmed out of me has been tremendous. And even starting this blog was a stepping stone to getting me to the place I am today.
I have been thinking about how simply amazing life is when you start to see the bigger picture. How fortunate I am to ACTUALLY see the bigger picture. I am amazed how things come together in ways you never expected.
Life truly happens when you least expect it.